6 weeks - cow duties

have been less hung up over breastfeeding this time round ... or rather, i have been doing what i can to get as much boob milk to baby but have not been feeling guilty about giving formula milk as well. 

when at home, i usually latch baby for all feeds and then top up with 3-4oz of pumped boob milk and formula from the bottle although it means that i get quite a lot of protesting from n. this also means i have some flexibility on pumping during the day as baby already helps empty my boobs and i see any pumping i do as a bonus. it's less stressful this way. moreover there are times where i can't put baby down long enough to pump or he refuses to be put down for his naps and i land up carrying him the whole time he sleeps ... zzzzz.

when out, we feed baby from the bottle only if it is not convenient to latch - haven't gotten used to breastfeeding in public especially since i don't actually own any breastfeeding tops. where we can get hot water conveniently, baby gets a mixed bottle and if not, he gets a full bottle of formula. 

so chill this time!! in fact, so chill until i have not been taking much domperidone. am trying to see if fenugreek works this time though ... probably took less doses than required to make a difference last round so now am tripling the dosage and crossing my fingers that there's a more natural way of upping milk supply. if it doesn't work for me, so be it. 

in my mind this time round, any extra milk i get arising from external help is a bonus.