after our first miscarriage, i told myself that i'd never use a pregnancy test unless i was certain it would be positive. attribute it to sixth sense or some in-built maternal instinct that gets turned on when the baby is conceived ... but i've always been spot-on ever since, i.e. no pee-sticks and $ gone to waste! :P
before i left for shanghai for a short work trip in mid-november, i told the husband that i hoped my period wouldn't come while i was overseas ... and true enough it didn't. post-trip, and with the period still not showing up, i decided it was TIME to find out what i had been suspecting for a few days already. so i peed on a stick early morning yesterday (waking up crazy early is a pregnancy symptom for me, because i'm never an early bird and can hardly crawl out of bed even at 8am to get to work). the husband awoke to me waving a pee-stick reading positive with silly grin on my face .... :)
i'm happy and scared at the same time. i've only gone through 3 cycles since the last miscarriage (with the first off-limits to trying as per the doctor's instructions), so we were pleasantly surprised that we got pregnant again so soon. we probably have the uber-chill vacation to phuket to thank. :P on the other hand, i've been through enough to know to manage my own expectations on how this pregnancy will turn out.
for now, we pray everyday for a healthy baby and cross our fingers for good measure.
